SPORADICALLY EMOTIONAL

CHOICE SONG: Stein Um Stein, by Rammstein. Wonderfully morbid and angry, like all Ramstein songs. LUV.

So, I've been pretty sporadically emotional this week. Wrote a very angry post that I (thankfully) never posted, and vented to some ppl and now I am good. I seriously hate drama. I mean, really, I loathe it. I'd be quite happy if it just avoided me and my life from this moment on, cuz it's stupid and pointless. Kind of like my existence, but we'll not get into that right now. I am 17 in a days. That makes me happy. 16 was not sweet, and there are no cliche phraseologies for 17 to set me up to fail. I doubt this year will be much better, but I won't have to take Chemistry and hopefully nobody that I'm fond of will kill themself. That would make 17 an infinitely better age.

Gawd, I surely was pretty depressive all day today. Why do things always pop up at the weirdest, most unexpected times? Also, is there something clinically wrong w/me that I cannot cry even when I want to the most? Even when I try?