HAPPY EASTER

CHOICE MOVIE: Finding Neverland. Great movie w/Johnny Depp, Kate Winslet, and 4 boys whose names I could care less about.

I think I have problems. I cannot seem to appreciate any of the following holidays: Labor Day, Arbor Day, Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving. The holidays I can enjoy to some extent are Halloween, St. Patricks Day, and Valentines Day. It's not that I hate these holidays, I just don't enjoy them alot. I mean, it's great getting a shitload of chocolate every month and all, but e-thing else is just kinda inconvenient.

I think holidays are good b/c peeps get off school and work and such. Also, we're supposed to be kind to other people and love our great grand country. Then, u know, I'm not a big fan of our country and all "kindness" felt on these holidays is just fake and insincere. We're kind b/c it makes us feel like better people, not b/c we care. That's not even my beef w/holidays. I don't really have anything solid against the things, I'm just not fond of them. Maybe it's b/c I'm missing some sort of vital link to my family. Does e-one find themselves unable to deal w/more than a few hours of familial contact until they've just had enough and need to be alone?

Good god, how am I going to survive this next week? My Grammy Peggy is coming to visit from Ohio. My sanity may take a vacation. I enjoy my father's parents, but my mother's whole family is just so screwed up and I feel like killing myself rather than ending up like any of them. Plus, my Grammy is a major Bible thumper(of the Baptist sect) and that is not good for a newly agnostic such as myself. I'm gonna have to hide my cd's from her so she doesn't get a God's Hand inspired idea to do away w/my "Satan music."