DISTRAUGHT
Today sucked the penis. I hate everyone today. It began okay enough w/me skipping English in favor of painting. That relaxed my extremely hateful/anti-social mood a bit, and so I was pleasant enough for Econ. Then I had government in which the mood was returning, full blown for Chorus, half of which I napped through in the Tuba Room. Spanish and lunch was Hannah in a v. bad mood where I might have confessed to wishing I could smoke more so that I could then contract cancer and die.
I then slept through Math. I really am getting v.g. at sleeping during classes. Blair decided that after a month of not singing or really doing anything during IMS that we should sing today. I don't know why. But dear god, why today? I felt like strangling him the whole time b/c of his fucking metaphors that he thinks helps me visualize the process, but are really just a big fucking "NO SHIT". Then he has to REPEAT them OVER AND OVER as if I had forgotten him saying it 5 seconds ago. I nearly exploded....and not in a good way. The second half of IMS I sat in the guitar room listening to Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd and being extremely sad. Why does this song make me so sad? Just reading the lyrics makes me go teary. Today is a bad day. I thought tomorrow was supposed to be my mental breakdown day, it's not fair.
On the up note, my laptop came in today! It's prettyful and such. I'm too distraught to figure it out today tho...so I'm currently on the home computer.
8 Comments:
Oh Hannah, I enjoy your rants. Sleeping through classes is good preparation for college.
And how does one explode in a good way?
Sorry your mayday was crappy, if i would have known i'd either given you my nice big juicy green apple, or a cupcake....if i had one... And good blowing up, not leaking petrol all over the place(word may not be spelled correctly...) So ya for your laptop, and so maybe karma ironically will bring you something good, meh, goodday fair lady.
p.s. i saw your painting i was like wow!
Let me know when you're ready to figure out your laptop. More than happy to help :)
P.S. If it's any consolation (and I know it's really not, it never is), I don't think anybody had a good day today.
P.P.S. Me wanting to help you get your laptop all together is one of those weird signs of desperation that I get every once in a while. Really, don't mind me.
Baby girl, Chad's one year memorial approaches. I wonder if this is why you're sad.
Anonymous 1 -- Think about it.
Sammi -- I'm sure I'll finagle you into helping me eventually, never fear.
Cindy -- Yes, that surely is why...it just happened on the wrong day, the depression. Perhaps it was b/c last year the 2nd was on a monday.
Emotional support to you on this day as well. Give me a call later?
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